happy CAMPer

It's not natural to be happy every moment. I've lived long enough to now that happiness is organic. It can't and won't be forced. I've been fortunate to be a sort of guinea pig for my son's new coaching practice. It has been pretty astounding. Not because he's gifted (ok, he is) and not because he's my kid (I may be biased but try not to be) ...but because I have a container available to sort stuff out that is working against my happiness. Tonight we began with our centering meditation. It comes easy for both of us..who knew? being on a similar wave length with your offspring? magic!

Tony had me do some breathing exercises to center and then went through the quadrants of my self. Mental (I've been trying to be in the moment while there are some weekend and month plans taking me away from the NOW)

Physical (My 60 year old body wants to make me aware that my hip is hurting tonight and needs some reiki..an opportunity to practice on myself while still staying in the moment)

Emotional (I have some fears I am not significant to people..ok, kids..ok A kid..)

Spiritual(I feel great spiritually..lots of love in..lots of love out..breath)

Then the question came "what are you in this moment?"

and "try not to think of gender or age or job or what standard ways people answer"

I'm a beacon of light!

It came to me without hesitation and without false modesty.

Then "think back to when you were 14 or so and what did you think of yourself then?"

a beam of light

I got quiet and tears. That felt good. Then he talked about how a candle light carves through wax and how all the mental, emotional, physical and spiritual stuff can melt together..ok, this is where my memory isn't forming the exact thing he said but I have a candle image forever in my head and heart and body and soul.

I would recommend life coaching. Or therapy. Or both. You deserve it.